Thursday, November 28, 2013
Dilemma...
Went to Bugis to have dinner with darling last night...
After dinner, went to Marina Barrage for a stroll and some sweet time together...
In the midst of chatting, i asked something that i shouldn't...
"So whats the result of the test (pregnancy test)?"
After hearing the answer, i almost fainted...
Tears came rolling down...
Thinking if this is the end for us...
I initiated a break up...
Darling just kept quiet...
After some time, he merely say he will respect my decision...
I don't know if i really mean something to him cause when i initiated it, what he do is only keep quiet till i ask him if he have anything to say to me?
I couldn't bring myself to leave someone i love so much...
Somehow my heart is telling me that we can try it out again...
It's the first time that i saw him cry...
And it because that he feels guilty for hurting me time and again, and i'm still holding on to him when he have nothing to offer me, not even himself...
Me: Do you love your wife?
Darling: Yes, and it was since the day i break off with you...
Me: *Burst out in tears
Me: Can you promise me something?
Darling: *nod head
Me: Can you promise me to only love me and no one else?
Darling: *nod head
Me: Will the future that we fantasize come one day?
Darling: *nod head. of cause.
That's how we manage to try things out again....
Went off to buy some drinks at 11.45...
After he got the drinks, he send me home and we spend a little bit more time together inside the car at the carpark near my place.
As he is looking tired, i went off at 1.10am and ask him to go home and rest early...
I hate to admit that i'm feeling really lousy and deprived...
What else can i do to make you mine...?
After dinner, went to Marina Barrage for a stroll and some sweet time together...
In the midst of chatting, i asked something that i shouldn't...
"So whats the result of the test (pregnancy test)?"
After hearing the answer, i almost fainted...
Tears came rolling down...
Thinking if this is the end for us...
I initiated a break up...
Darling just kept quiet...
After some time, he merely say he will respect my decision...
I don't know if i really mean something to him cause when i initiated it, what he do is only keep quiet till i ask him if he have anything to say to me?
I couldn't bring myself to leave someone i love so much...
Somehow my heart is telling me that we can try it out again...
It's the first time that i saw him cry...
And it because that he feels guilty for hurting me time and again, and i'm still holding on to him when he have nothing to offer me, not even himself...
Me: Do you love your wife?
Darling: Yes, and it was since the day i break off with you...
Me: *Burst out in tears
Me: Can you promise me something?
Darling: *nod head
Me: Can you promise me to only love me and no one else?
Darling: *nod head
Me: Will the future that we fantasize come one day?
Darling: *nod head. of cause.
That's how we manage to try things out again....
Went off to buy some drinks at 11.45...
After he got the drinks, he send me home and we spend a little bit more time together inside the car at the carpark near my place.
As he is looking tired, i went off at 1.10am and ask him to go home and rest early...
I hate to admit that i'm feeling really lousy and deprived...
What else can i do to make you mine...?
this heart of mine was broken at 2:34 PM
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